best friend, dont have a lot of them, just a few peolpe with interesting history and personality, i have a low self-esteem but i don’t really have a serious problem in making friend (my friends said i’m funny), i just spend most of my time for myself, so i seldom acknowledge the people surround me.. even my best friends.. but like normal humans do, i dont want to be alone, i just want to spend most of my time alone, egoist? maybe…

I remember my friend ( just call him Q) back in elementary school.. Q wasn’t like any other normal kids, unlike me, Q had some trouble making friend and he had this very low intellegence.. my friends often ( including me, sometimes) making fun of him.. his only role in school was as an object, as a laughing stock.. i know this were wrong, and i know my friends also will regret what they had done to him.. maybe we were to young to realize.. i don’t know..
i had build some relationship with Q, we talked and told stories.. and what i didn’t see and my friends didn’t see was that Q had a pure heart, his was nice and quite funny but i think he had some problem in trusting someone, maybe because what we did to him..anyway.. Q moved out from our school.. and i never heard from him since… may God be with you, my dear friend of mine, i’m so sorry..